Lazy

Been putting off blogging on and off for the last few days because....well I've just been too damn lazy that's all. But since I don't feel that tired right now I might as well make some use out of this time.

Since I've been on this weird work schedule, I've been thinking a lot about my situation. Lately I've been feeling extremely isolated from the life I knew pre-college as well as the life I knew during college. What I mean I guess is since this has been my second go-around on Long Island (has it really been 3 years already?) and after taking this job at Estee Lauder, the life and friends I knew before just seems so far away. And for a brief time I wasn't cool with that and sort of resented my situation.

However, now that I have settled into a routine (albeit a simple one), I've become more at peace with the fact that in addition to some of my childhood friends, I am not as connected with my college friends as well. That's not to say that I don't miss you all but at the same time I realize that it's ok not to be in the mix as much as I used to.
At least now that I will be in the city on the weekends, freelancing at CBS, I'll be able to see some of you more often. I guess another reason why I haven't been around the city as much is due to the fact that I didn't work at all in the city this Summer because: 1) CBS had no studio show and 2) for some reason I didn't have any marketing companies calling me to book me for any promotions.

And while those 2 factors impacted my wallet severely, I think not being in the city as much has been a good thing. For a while there it was difficult for me to give up the 'city' life and would look for every opportunity to try and be a part of whatever was going on in it. It's only now that I've reconciled that I have been spreading myself too thin and really need to just keep things more simple.

Don't get me wrong though. I will always love the city and even now I still feel it calling to me, like a neighborhood kid knocking on his buddy's door and asking his mom if it was alright if he could come out and play. And whenever I am in I will look to raise as much hell as possible. I just have to pick my spots .