Laying Low

To those of you who might've been wondering where I've been, rest assured I've just been keeping a low profile (or at least trying to). And as some of you might already know this is because I'm attending to some family issues, and to "step up" to this moment has taken me some time to adjust.

Dealing with adversity is something that I've never really had to deal with. I guess that's because I've led a pretty sheltered existence. But when things happen to your family, that changes things. Over the last few weeks I've had to look inward and see what really matters to me. And the conclusion that I've made is that the only thing that matters right now is my family and what I need to do to make that their needs come first.

It's weird because, although my family is going through a tough time right now, I find that I've experienced a clarity in my life that I've never really felt before. For a while I was obsessed with material things, looking for the next big thing, the next big sale. Now all of that has fallen by the wayside and for the time being I would have to say that is for the best.

Internally I'm still going through ups and downs but with each passing day I feel better about the task at hand and what I need to do in order to meet my families daily needs. A lot of the uncertainty and anxiety that seem to dominate my thoughts lately center around what I'm going to do after my second season of "Who wants to be a millionaire" wraps up in early November.

Once i get my next gig squared away I think I'll be able to breathe a bit easier but until then I'm going to be flying under the radar for a while.